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Imaginary Lovers
The time, I spend loving you is the time I spend separated from my own life-long imaginary lover. That stunning ideal of a woman-in-waiting must have aged because I have done so, too. I guess, she's become less attractive, less active, and less capable of understanding my changing needs, as her imaginary lover. She is the kind of perfection who missed her very own entrance, her loneness adding to the inevitable build-up of her disillusionment with imaginary love. With the passing of time, I have become more accepting that – in spite of her imagined perfection – she's no longer welcome. In her name, I used to gamble with destiny in search of fortune. She's the one part of me I chose to abandon as the imaginary pay-back against the odds. Now, devoting myself to just you, I know I can never miss out on a rush of complexities as exhilarating as the idea of immortality itself.
Richard Tylman
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Vacation LoveLove begins with the promise of novelty, which is the main component of every departure. Going away is how we attract new love in its most exotic environment. For you and me, vacation love begins the morning, we leave the Lower Mainland through the Straits of Georgia, and plunge into the remnants of the rainforest. Opening vistas hold the promise of excitement in progress. We put on a different, younger face for the ferry joyride.The forest is bursting with the sounds of love. It stands weathered and naked. Feeling watched, we curl under the old blanket, in front of a stove, in a rain-soaked cabin. The crackling of the fire is like ravens' cackle. – The cackle and the crackle of the night falling upon primal life. Making love in the woods, we find, is as opulent as breathing.
Richard Tylman
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Let's Dance
Haven't we danced among basement storage once, or while house-cleaning with a dusting brush for a rose? And again, haven't you come swinging a watering can like the hem of your skirt, be it with the national radio, or the TV; be it barefoot with hips wrapped in a towel – with the Big Dipper shining over a stack of dirty dishes? We've made it through and that's enough of a reason to celebrate. Let's dance then out of sheer gratitude.Like willing minds, our dance steps need to be well aligned since no-one can watch their feet all the time without an intuitive sense of flow. No dancers would want to step on each other toes with words and emotions, secret moves and unfulfilled desires. Dancing requires that partners be happy together, as well as when apart. It's a ready-made form of mutual understanding between equals. Richard Tylman
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The Summer In summer, when the city sparrows, crazed, fly crashing into white-hot air, and the fields of grass, rejuvenated, strive to escape their own down-to-earth existence, even a high-powered love is easy going. Both our radiant bodies carry an open invitation during the long days of summer. We need no additional stimuli, overwhelmed by our senses already and only plotting our way out of recapture by a post-modern, down-to-earth society. In summer, life gets downright fleshy if not plain physical. We're feeling excited by our daydreaming about homesteading somewhere between the widespread legs of this planet. Urbanites, heaven forbid!
Richard Tylman
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A Gut Feeling
Compassionate love never seems like much. It can best be defined by how effortless it is. Showing compassion brings about a feeling of ease of the most casual kind; but, to be offered compassion – or compassionate love – is not a common occurrence. Such absence of commonality, in turn, can feel like a suction in the gut. It is a feeling similar to the living memory of unhappiness that is suddenly missed from the heart, of a lifetime of grievances once prominent, or a limb that has been surgically severed; yet, itches still. The absence of pain – like compassionate love – is rarely experienced. It shows up as a gut feeling, unknown from relationships long finished. Love, freed of compassion, is for people who find the act of love free of meaningful people. It is a kind of howl in predatory darkness of all passion that kills that empty feeling like the taste of prey.Richard Tylman
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Rhythm Method
Dead silence is the only heritage of all the victims of disillusionment; those who have never been told how to go about living without having to silence their own curiosity first. Silence of the disillusioned keeps pushing each new generation back into the cradle of self-knowledge.Thus, coming of age, how could we be told anything useful about aging by those who abandoned their own youthful selves in shame for having been there once, without any insight. Coming of age, for instance, we have but little knowledge of the interdependence of the astral bodies and those of our own. The Moon cycles and the times of change are not beyond comprehension; even though, they require a level of awareness. Certainly, such skills remain rare, not only among the old, but also among the well experienced. Yet, we expect the young to rise above our gross inability to live in accordance with the lunar cycles. Old customs make no mention of our own species' basic stuff of life. We make no preparations for a none celebration of the biggest event yet among all of our powers – a girl's first fertility cycle. There's nothing but shame that comes crashing down upon girls where there should be music and an all-night dance, a feast for all, and a showering of gifts, a long gown that would make her proud, and new shoes for the boys so as to help them stand-up to the occasion. Instead, there's the secrecy of silence that surrounds the imminent arrival of yet another lunar spell. The ghosts of Gregorian monks keep rising up with plumes of steam from a squeezed-out sponge in a cold and darkened bedroom. There has yet to be invented the universal rhythm calendar set for each human being, where their own gestation period would be used as a standard of measurement; each, consisting of the total number of weeks of growth, from inception to birth. One calendar-book per person, both male and female, with days of rest and reflection, being reflective of the menstrual bleeding of women at the beginning of each cycle, followed half way through by an egg released for each brand new project. Six billion rhythm calendars envisioned for a present-day planet. A flood of blood matched only by a flood of Moon calendar publishing from Katmandu all the way to Lublin. But, I have heard you say, my friend, you are not aware of such a subtle change taking place. Such as, when your own breasts become misty soft, each month, regularly, like the waning Moon, or quiet and carefree, at a cusp of a new phase, as only you can be, when you're not fertile. Such were the rhythmic ways of life experienced by your gender; yet, never appraised in public since the times of our own forbearers. I guess, deep down, we don't really like each other that much, mothers and the mothers of mothers to be. The old who care not about the self-knowledge of the young; but, about the hymens being thorned with or without the shiny proof of purchase, like the silly dreams of their own innocence lost, once and for all.
Richard Tylman
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